The Detox Before The Weekend

Right after my shift ended today, I thought, "This shit is tiring." To think that I'm just sitting at home scanning social media for potential clients, working the phone to sell, and writing emails. It has only been two weeks. 


The monotony is getting to me.


I did sales for most of my adult life, eighteen years to be exact. Yes, the thing I'm doing now is still sales, but this thing is a different beast in and of itself. I guess I'm still not considering it as a job just yet. It's an extension of my internship. But don't get me wrong, I'm thankful that I get to learn more about the industry I want to be in.


I think I know what it is. I'm not getting results as quickly as I want, but then again, it has only been a little over two weeks. But still.


As I was thinking about those things up there, I knew I needed to start the weekend with a "semi" mental detox. So, I sat in my workspace and opened Spotify. While scanning my playlist and suggestions, I can't find something to listen to. The usual podcasts I listen to didn't seem to appeal to me ATM either (naks, Gen Z!)


Then I thought of Queso's self-titled album. I can't remember when I last listened to it. I knew it was not available on Spotify, so I went to YouTube and searched for it. It came out in 2006, about the same time I started to love what I did back then; sales. 



I had a CD of this album when it was released, yes, I know, dated. I remember the anticipation I had when I first listened to it in full. Honestly, it didn't quite meet my expectation on the first run. I thought it was too offbeat, and Ian's vocals was too... hmmm... twangy? If that's even a word (I checked, and it is, and that's exactly how I thought of it.)


Because it's a new CD, I kept playing it on repeat every time I had the chance. I don't remember how long it took before the album started growing on me. I just know I started singing with the songs, including the instrumental fillers. Weird, right?  -Asan na nga kaya yung CD ko?


So I loaded it, hit play, and before I knew it, I was bobbing my head up and down. This band is not exactly the one you listen to when you want to relax. However, there's something calming about listening to one of your favorite albums of all time. 


I was listening intently to the eighth song, Unyo. I was humming along since I already forgot the words. I felt drawn to it, so I had to play it again and search for the lyrics: 


Rise anew

Start anew

Open door

Everything has an end

Let us all cherish our memories

Embrace what is left of us

Voraciously embody what is given

A new nothing

Gives a new start

Embrace what is left of us

Embrace what is left of us


In time if we lose everything

We can create anew


We are all created

Perfectly imperfect

Fulfill each and everyone's purpose

Come alive

Our own purpose

Come alive


In every passing moment

Discoveries are bound to happen

Life cannot live without its mysteries

It only can be answered by time


In time if we lose everything

We can create anew


Face right down to the concrete

You embrace what is left


I don't know, call it dramatic and shit, but I felt like it spoke to me.  


Everything has an end

Let us all cherish our memories

Embrace what is left of us

Voraciously embody what is given

A new nothing

Gives a new start


I guess I'm at the point where I'm overthinking the future. Unyo might have been a reminder that there's still something up ahead. 


A new nothing

Gives a new start


I definitely found the soundtrack for my weekend. If you chance on this post and feel slightly drained by the week that passed, get back to the albums you love. Music has a way of calming your thoughts and relieving your worries. 

Sabi nga ni Ian, "tayo, pagpag, laban ulit." Di ko maalala kung tama ba, pero you get the point. 



If you're curious: Queso Self-titled Album

I just found out it's set for release in vinyl 





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